It's weak and despicable to go on wanting things and not trying to get them. - Joanna Field

Whoa, two post one day.

I was bored and spent a good part of today surfing through random blogs. That said, I really really REALLY want a new camera. The Man throws a customer appreciation luau every November. I got ridiculously sauced at the first one that I attended. The combination of an open bar and his outrageous lawyer friends were too much for my fun-loving 23 year old self. At some point in the night my little Kodak (which took awesome pictures!) got dropped. Insert frowny face here. He promised to get me a new one. Then December arrived and he talked me into quitting my job 'Working For The (Faceless) Man' and working for HIM, The Man, instead. So began my time as housewife/self-employed. Without a paycheck arriving in my name I have to ask The Man for every dime. Not fun or easy for me. I tend to only ask for money for grocery shopping, stuff for the dogs or stuff for his grandbaby (yes, I'm an almost 26 year old pseudo-step-grandma!).

I spend a lot of time pining over things I love/want but don't really NEED. A new camera has been at the top of my list for, well, since the last one broke. I hold off especially since I'd love to have a fancy-shmancy Canon. I want to take breathtaking pictures like are on all the other (quite possibly better, though I'm still new so give me a few weeks) blogs.

My birthday is in two weeks. I would ask for a camera but I also really really want fabric to start my sewing adventures as well as some fantastically awesome shoes that I found on eBay. We're going to Las Vegas in April for the Viva Las Vegas Rockabilly Weekend. I have only 2 dresses and exactly NO shoes for the trip. Paired with the fact that I can't walk in high heels yet (let alone the 5" ones that I pine for hard core) I keep trying to talk him into getting at least the shoes for me NOW so that I can break them in/train my feet to not self-implode after 10 minutes. And THAT'S all on top of the fact that we have to get Little Girl fixed and a mysterious mass removed on this upcoming Monday.

How'd I pick a sugar daddy who's lacking so much in the sugar?

I kid. He works VERY hard and many many exterior forces come together to keep our budget tight every month. If things go the way he plans however, we won't want for anything within the next few years.

That is, if we don't kill each other first. =P